Holding Onto Heaven

Faith-rooted grief support for moms

You don't
have to be
okay.

But you don't have to be alone either. Honest, faith-rooted resources for the mom who is still finding her way through grief without the toxic positivity.

"Grief is not something to be fixed. It's love with nowhere to go."

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Hey, I'm Rue

I believe your grief is not a sign
that your faith is broken.
It's a sign that you are loved.

I didn't create Holding Onto Heaven because I had the answers. I created it because I was drowning in the questions and I couldn't find anything that held me without lying to me about how this ends. I spent years looking for resources that were honest, faith-rooted, and didn't rush me through the hard parts. When I couldn't find them, I wrote them.

This is that space. Raw. Real. Rooted in faith not the kind that pretends everything happens for a reason, but the kind that sits with you in the dark and doesn't let go.

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Holding Onto Heaven book by Ruvimbo Masuka
Matthew 11:28 — Come to me all who are weary
The Lord Does Great Things
You are enough — watercolor affirmation

What grieving moms are saying

"I didn't think anyone understood what I was carrying. This journal gave me the words I couldn't find on my own — and permission to still be in it."

— Monique, grieving mom · Ontario, Canada

Resources for the journey

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Holding Onto Heaven book by Rue Masuka

The book

Holding Onto Heaven

The book that started it all. Written from inside the grief, not from the other side of it. For the mom who needs someone to sit with her in it.

$27.00

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Healing Journal 2026

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60-Day Grief Journal

Not another gratitude journal. 60 days of prompts, scripture, and space to say the things you can't say out loud. Goes where the grief actually is.

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7-Day Prayer Guide

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5 Truths for Grieving Moms

A free faith-rooted guide for the mom who is done pretending she's okay. The honest truths no one tells you about grieving as a mother.

Free

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What this space is built on

This isn't about moving on. It's about learning to carry it differently.

Every resource, every word, every coaching call at Holding Onto Heaven is built on three things that I believe with everything I have.

Work with me
01

For the grief nobody sees

The grief that lives quietly inside a mom who has to keep going for everyone else. The kind that doesn't get a casserole. That grief is real and it belongs here.

02

Rooted in faith, not false hope

Faith that doesn't paper over the pain with platitudes. The kind that says "I don't understand this" and stays anyway. That's what we hold onto here.

03

Healing that doesn't mean forgetting

Healing is not the absence of grief. It is learning to breathe around it — slowly, imperfectly, with God holding the parts you can't carry alone.

Rue Masuka — author and grief coach

1-on-1 grief coaching

Sometimes you need someone to sit in it with you.

Someone who has been there. Who won't hand you a silver lining or tell you how strong you are when all you need is to fall apart for a minute. That's what this space is for.

Free 30-minute discovery call - no pressure, just space
60-minute 1-on-1 grief coaching session
4-session deep dive coaching package
Ongoing monthly support
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"I didn't know I needed permission to still be grieving. This guide gave me that and so much more."

— Tamara · Ontario

"The journal prompts went places I didn't expect. I cried through most of it. That was exactly what I needed."

— Keisha · Texas

"Rue is the only person who has made me feel like my faith and my grief can exist in the same room together."

— Nadia · London